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OH MY GOD!!! When I can really find a job? Since the last failed attempt in the interview, I have been so depressed about it and was thinking of giving up of finding job. I hate people see me in a different view and despised me when they saw me in the interview. I know that I have difficulty in communicating with others and my right hand shakes often that others may think that I have no strength to carry things or do work. But I think that I can still do some simple work like typing or filing although I would be slower than others. Often, I see those handicapped people or those people who have disability people who work with their own hands to earn a living themselves. I really respect and admire them that they have such courage and determination to work with their own hands despite their unhealthy body and they need to tolerate other people’s view. I wish that I could have the courage like them to do the things that I wanted to do. Now I can finally understand what people say about this world – “CRUEL and UNFEELING”. Indeed, it is. I always thought that as long as I put in effort in doing something, there would be some rewards that I would get back. But now, I would change my opinion. In this world, appearance is more important than what others called “diploma” or “degree”. If I now have the money, I would surely go for surgery to make my speech more fluent and be a normal person. Thanks my friends, my parents and Jovin for encouraging me not to give up because of what others said and to move on and eventually there would be companies who would want to hire me. Although I think that this encouragement would not really help me greatly and I was still hurt in my heart and have been bothered by these matters. If not, I will surely give up on hopes. |
