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I often wonder to myself that whether I have any friends since I came to this world. Although I often tell my family and my cousin that I have many friends in school, actually there are only 1 or 2 best friends that are really concerned about me. Perhaps I could say that there are practically none. Cos, I hardly can find a friend to confide in them whenever I am feeling down or having any difficulties and problem. Sometimes, I would tell my cousin about the problems that I am currently facing and am hoping to release all the troubles. But most of the times, I would try to keep to myself and facing the challenges by myself and try to escape from the reality. Often I am envious that why my friends and others can mix together so easily and have a lot of fun moments together. They can joke around, laugh, disturb each other and go out together whether going to lunch, watching movie or k-box. I, myself, would also want to be like them, going out with my friends, having a friend to talk to whenever I feel bored or encounter any problems. It will be wonderful to have a friend to encourage me and giving me some advice. Maybe I think that most of my friends will probably scare to hurt my feelings and won’t dare to talk to me and don’t know how to talk to me. Indeed, I am very particular about what others have said something bad to me and my feelings will be hurt. But I will not be angry with them or don’t be friends with them. I guess that these are the reasons why I don’t have any friends to share my problems with them: 1. I seldom talk to my friends whether it is class, break, and class gathering or even when going out with them. Maybe it is because of my personality, like I tend to keep things to myself and do not dare to mix with other people. Sound like those people who have autism. Or maybe it is due to my inferiority complex that stops me from having to communicate with others. 2. I do not like to bother my friends or add troubles to them as everyone has their own problems. 3. Whenever I am with my friends, I feel that there is a big barrier between me and them like the two different worlds. And that is why I keep cannot find any friends to confide my problem in them. I guess that this is one of the part of my journey ba… Anyway, I hope that after reading this blog, don't try to stay away with me hor just because of don't want to hurt my feelings... |
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Yesterday, I received two calls from the companies that I have sent out the resumes to and one of the companies asked me to go for the interview. So I went to interview and actually found out that it was the recruit express company that is just like the agent who helps people to find jobs. So I told the person what the jobs that I am interested in. At the same time, I could relax by going out to walk instead keeping myself for many days. Hope to receive good news from the company. |
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Paiseh…I have never updated my blog for the past few days. I have been staying at home after the Chinese New Year. So sian…I have been looking for jobs nowadays and sending out resumes to companies. Too bad, there have no reply yet. Seeing that my cousin already started her attachment and my brother will be working when his exams are over, I feel that I like nothing to do, like a useless person. Every day, staying at home, watching tv, playing with my two little nephews and playing games. Hardly go out to walk. Guess that I am going to become a pig soon. Today, my grade has finally come out. I was surprised when I saw my FYP grade. Can’t believe my eyes that I have actually passed!!! Overall, my gpa is not quite bad...I manage to save from 2.5 in year 1 to 2.95 now. Finally, I can relax le. Maybe I will attend the graduation ceremony at March ba… Hope that I will get a reply from the companies… |
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Another boring day for me. Went to watched Chang Jiang 7 hao with my uncle, aunt and my little cousin. It was quite nice as there are laughter and crying scenes. I think this movie is better than the Ah Long Pte Ltd although Ah Long have more laughter scenes. But I think the story plot for CJ 7 is better. Haha…get to wear my new clothes. I guess that I need to find job soon nw… |
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Another boring day for me. Woke up late...went to play Chinese Chess with my cousin. It was my mother’s turn to cook for the relatives and family. My relatives came to my house to eat. After the dinner, my cousin and I played the twisters and fire sparklers. As my house is at the corner, so we played around the staircase there. It was so smoky because the area is too small for the smoke to go away. So we practically had to play a few sticks at a time. As for myself, I did not really get to play. I nearly have asthma because of that. We also took some photos. That's all. |
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Today, it was a boring day as our family has no much activity to do. In the afternoon, we went to the Clarke Quay and the esplanade. We have not been there for about 3 years and my mother wanted to take some photos. At first, I thought that there would be lesser people to go there. But when we reached there, there were still numbers of people going there and many of them were tourists. Haha…I find the funniest part was that we actually quite a number of photos there despite the place still looks the same as before.
Bro n mi... I look like gangter right?
Rats pai nian
My horoscope rabbit
Our garden
In front of the esplanade
Wow! Merlion! In the evening, the family who my mother has previously taken care of their daughter came. Their looks still look the same and they have one more new member in their family.Then I went to my grandma’s house to play Chinese chess with my cousin. |
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Happy Chinese New Year to all of you!!! Today was quite a tired day to me. My family went to my grandma’s house to pai nian which is to celebrate the Chinese New Year. I took the two mandarin oranges and gave them to my grandma to wish him well. And my brother gave them to my uncle. Then we sat there for a while. We ate our lunch there and we took photos with my grandma and cousins.
Grandma, cousin, bro n mi
My family
Say Cheese! After that, my family went to Sentosa to see the flowers. This was the third time that we went to Sentosa consecutively on Chinese New Year. It was because my mother really likes those flowers and wanted to take a good photo of our family. Also, I think that there is no interesting place for us to go during CNY. When we reached the Harbour Station, the place was so crowded with people that there was quite a long queue from the station to outside the Vivo City.So my father decided to go Sentosa by taking a taxi. It was really hard to take a taxi as most of the drivers need to eat lunch. When it was nearly our turn to take taxi, a bunch of Indian people pushed us away and cut queue and were flagging for taxi. We were so angry that we decided to go back to the Sentosa Express Train to queue up despite many people. As the weather was so hot plus we queued up for almost half an hour before we bought the entry ticket, I sweated a lot and caused my shirt to wet. After we bought the ticket, we queued up to take the mono trail which took us to Sentosa. When we reached there, we ate the mandarin oranges and started our photo taking journey. The flowers were quite nice and the decorations were creative. Almost in all the areas, people were taking photos with their families and friends. For those areas where the decorations were super beautiful, people need to queue up for their turns in order to take a photo. It was difficult to take a photo as people were moving around and it was crowded. We took quite a lot of shots and sometimes, we asked other people and the staff over there to take photos of our family. Soon, we finished our photo taking and my family went to the counter to see the photos that the staffs have taken before. Then we went home to rest. When we reached home, I quickly transferred the photos to my laptop. It was because my mother wanted to see. The photos that we have taken are not nice as compared to last year. I wondered why it would be like this.
Spring's story
Sunflowers are dancing
Yucks, ladybirds
Butterfly rests on the star
Rats couple
Birds' nest
Rats eating rice with chopsticks
Warriors rocks!
Selling roses
Butter flies!
Helping rats to move melons Then our past neighbours went to our house and we chatted. Her son has grown taller since I saw him last time.
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Yo…Happy Chinese New Year eve to everyone! As usual, this year, we went to my grandma’s house to eat the reunion dinner. These two years, the atmosphere was quite low as compared to the past. It was because my aunt and her family went to Taiwan to celebrate Chinese New Year. As a result, there were little fun moments. We have received ang pows from my grandparents and relatives. We also saw our third uncle whom we hardly can see him. I had wanted to watch the 7pm show but my uncle was watching DVDs. But nevermind loh!!! After finished our dinner, the kids went to one room and played and the adults were chatting and doing their own things. Haha…I already 21…still played with them. I played Chinese chess with my little cousin, Roy. After that, my two nephews went to another place and finally we have peace. It was fun when the two kids were around but it can be noisy and they run around. Then, we played the game whereby we need to continue the word and need to memorize from the first word to the last words. We also played the Twister in which this was the first time that I played. It was fun as it really tested my endurance and my flexibility. Some of the movements were quite difficult as if it is impossible for me to do. Then I went back to get the fire sparklers in which I told my father to buy. We played the fire sparklers at downstairs. As it was already so late, we were afraid to disturb other people, we did not make any loud noise while we were playing. It was so smoky and Oops, we have contributed something bad to the earth.  Making words with used fire sparklers  What's this?  Say Cheese!  Hey!!! We are mice! After all those playing and photo taking stuff, we went to our individual home. Then I watched the CNY countdown show. Although it was not nice as the overseas countdown show, I still liked to watch the Singapore variety show. I specially took note of what my luck will be in the mouse year. Soon, all the artistes gathered together and the countdown began. 3, 2, 1...Happy Chinese New Year. I also sent wishes to my friends and family. |
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ARGH!!! Staying at home is so boring. In the past, I hope that I will finish my studies soon and go out to work. But now, I began to miss the schooling days. I went out with Jovin yesterday to spend my time. Guess that it was probably last time that we went out together…as I think that I will be busy with my work in future and probably it is hard to find time to meet together. So, we went to Jurong Point for a walk. It has been a long time since I went there for shopping. It has indeed quite changed a lot. As we have nothing to buy because we have finished buying our clothes, we just walked around to see. Then we ate KFC there. Often, we just walked and didn’t chat very much. I don’t know why I always have many things to say and want us to be happy but my mind simply went blank and like I don’t want to talk and a little bit moody. Guess that I suddenly have no goals and don’t know what to do. After eating, we continued to walk for a while. After that, I went home and she went to meet her friend. Today, I accompanied Daniel to Queensway shopping centre to buy his clothes. There were so many people also trying to buy their Chinese New Year stuff in the last minute. I took Daniel to the uncle’s shop where I bought most of my clothes there. Too bad, he did not take a liking for the clothes there. Then, we continued to walk around to find his clothes. In the end, he did not buy any clothes as most of the clothes that have left are not nice. Then, we went to Anchor Point for a walk. The place still looks the same, very little people went there in which I thought after the renovation, the place will attract many people to go there. After that, we went home. |
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Haix…I have been looking out for jobs nowadays from the internet and the newspaper. It is hard to find a suitable job for me. Don’t know whether it is my low self esteem or other reasons that influence my decision. For the admin stuff, when I see that it involves accepting calls from clients, I know that I can’t possibly do. For me to go into manufacturing and logistics industry but getting the diploma is not enough plus I don’t have any experience. Actually my dream job is either do business or to be an accountant, but I guess that I cannot fulfill that dream for now because I don’t have any diploma for business and accounting. Probably, I will study the accounting course in future. For the moment, I only just want to earn money first. To me, graduate means that I must go out to work and earn money. I guess I have not really prepared for the coming challenges that I will be facing in future. There are two things I must do first. First, speak confidently. Second, learn as much things as I can. Third, don't care what others think about me. Many people have probably come to me and persuade me to try to talk often. They will tell me that try not to care about what others are thinking of you, importantly, is what I am thinking of myself. But you guys never know that actually I tried many times already, trying to remind myself to be confident, but it always failed. It is easier to say that having to do it. Like for myself, i often look at the mirror and say that I can do it, but it is of no use. For example, when I tell the staff that I want to buy mrt concession, he will always take a longer time to understand or sometimes he will ask me to write in a paper. At that moment, I often feel that I am so useless and will be sad. To others, it may seem simple for them. But to me, even a simple task like that is like so difficult to achieve. Take another example, my cousin or friends will always ask me why I always eat bread for lunch or when I am going out with them. It is not that I want to eat bread for all times, I also hated eating bread and wanted to eat something nice, it is because whenever I carry the food or noodles, my hands will shake a lot and sometimes, the food might drop to the floor. I try to be calm, but I cannot control my hand movements. i don't want to disgrace my family and friends in front of so many strangers. My mother always jokes that if I continue to be like this, next time, if I got girlfriend, she will surely run away. Haha…I also think so. That's all... Hope to find job soon. |
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SO SAD...last day going to school for lesson. When I woke up in the morning, I was going to school with an excited feeling as it was going to be last lesson in RP. At the same time, I was sad that I prayed to myself that today the time will be moving slowing and I will cherish every moments that I went to RP like waking up at 6.30am...taking the mrt to school...spending time with my friends...having discussion in my team...doing presentation in front of the class...n doing reflection journal . Time really flies. 3 years of poly life have come to an end. Feeling sad and can’t bear with my fellow classmates and facilitators who have taught me before. Of course, don’t forget my wushu friends! Remember the first day when I stepped into RP, I felt like I was in a strange environment cos i do not have any friends in RP and I could not believe that I had to spend my 3 years life there. Imagine a boy who is quiet, don’t like to interact with others and is afraid that others who may look down on him, had to gather his courage to take on a new challenge which might be an impossible task for him. And so for the first day of school, I attended the first lesson in RP. I was uncomfortable and nervous, having to meet new faces...need to adapt to the PBL system. In the first semester of the year, I nearly dared not talk anything during the discussion and presentation. But during the second semester, one of my classmates, Jia Feng, encouraged me to be confident to present in front of the class. i really thanked for his encouragement, if it was for for his encouragement, i might still don't dare to talk by now. that will means that i am wasting my time. And from that time on, I began to speak out during the presentation and I have found ways to communicate with others. As time went by, I have made many new friends from different classes in the whole 3 years and i have begun to adapt. Thanks PN01, PB01, E55J, E24Q, E57J, W54H, W66D and W65R for letting me have the most memorable experiences for me!!! At the same time, I decided to join some CCAs to spend my time wisely; making more friends and the important part is to boost up my confidence level. Although now I was still a quiet boy as always be, I think I have learnt many lessons and many first-time experiences in RP life. Like the first time when I learnt how to work in a team, make presentation in front of the class, attend CE talks, do Professional Profiling, do FYP and the most of all, I get to have the experience in wushu. For wushu, I felt so happy to be able to train wushu because I always hope to learn different martial skills and weapons. Although the training was quite hard at first, I got used to it after a while. I got a chance to perform on the stage though I only performed for two times, but I was quite happy and honoured and at the same time, I gained a valuable experience. In the wushu IG, I made my four best friends in there and I will always remember them. As for those facilitators who have taught me, I like to thank them for being so patience with me and always encourage me to talk. Although I seldom talk during class, they have never given up on me and always tried their best to make me speak out. They also shared their working experience with the class and made the lesson so interesting. Lastly, I hope that those classmates and friends who know me do well in their studies, get what they had hoped for. For those who are going for further studies, do well in their studies. For those guys who are going to army, GOOD LUCK to all of you!!! HaHa…need to go botak!!! For those who are going to work, remember to earn a lot of money and don’t forget me when you are rich!!! In future, remember to tap on my shoulders when you see me walking in the street!!! I also must start to look for job le… |
