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Today, I and my 3 wushu friends who are Ying Qing, Ah Yong and Ching ling went to Orchard – Cini leisure to watch movie. We watched the Forbidden Kingdom which, two famous stars, Jackie Chan and Jet Li worked together to act for the movie. I had read from the magazine before that these two stars have wanted to work together in a movie. But it is always failed because their time always does not accommodate, either one of them is busy with another movie or has some other things to do. I was filled with excitement when my friend asked me whether I wanted to watch this movie. And so we met at the somerset mrt and we went to buy the tickets. As the time was early, we went to eat first. At the same time, we chatted to find out how each of us is doing now. Then we went to the cinema and watched the movie. I thought that there would be many people watching the movie because I read from the news that many people have watched the movie and say that it was nice. But then, not a lot of people watched the show from what I saw. Perhaps it was because we watched the earliest time slot and that is why there were not so many people. And so the show began. Although I find that the story is so unbelievable and it is almost to be appeared in real life, I think that overall it is a nice and funny show. Like the monkey god and the deity emperor can speak English, it was the first time I see them speaking in English...so unbelievable. But I enjoyed watched the fighting scenes between Jackie Chan and Jet Li. After watching the movie, we went to Takasimaya to find Jason who worked there to ask him to eat lunch. After finished eating, we went to Funan IT mall to find Rayston to ask him to eat with us. While eating, they chatted and I found out after I graduated, there are so many things happened in the wushu IG. Then we walked around the shopping centre. Finally, we went home. |
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Yo!!! I have not been writing blog for about 2 weeks le. Sian…lately, I still lead the same kind of life like those tai tai…everyday, staying at home doing the same old stuff, so bored. Since the past few experiences with the interview, I now become more careful in selecting the jobs that I think that I really suitable for. In the past, whenever I saw the requirement for the jobs and think that I should be up to it, I would send out resume to many companies. But now, I would really think about it first before I send out the resume to companies. As a result, I nowadays send out only few resumes. I really cannot take it le…reject…reject n reject. For people who know me, they know what kind of a person I am. I am afraid to accept and face failure and I always look like so coward. Perhaps it is due to my horoscope which is Leo, always like to be a leader, show off and don’t like failure. Last Friday, my friend gave me a website – “http://www.bizlink.org.sg/” which helps people who have disability to find a job. Then I was curious and went to take a look. I found out that actually the jobs are roughly about the same as normal job. Just that their requirement of work and the amount of work is much easier than the normal job. Some of the salary is about the same as the normal job but some is much lesser. So I sent out many resumes to companies and guess what. Only 1 company replied me. I now still come in contact with the person because she needs to know what condition I have before she can recommend me a job. |
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Yesterday, I went to the Deltalians chalet whereby all the Deltalians for my year and teachers and the principal gathered together to know each other's current situation. At first, I thought that there would be a mass gathering at Pasir Ris Mrt first, and then we went to the chalet. But to my surprise, there were only a few people at there. I was the first one to reach there as I was earlier and found that there was no one waiting at there. So I went to walk around the shopping centre for a while. Then when I went back to the Mrt Station, there was still no sign of familiar faces. After a while, Juisin waved to me and he said that there would be people coming but he did not know the number of people. So while waiting, we stood at a corner and chatted a little bit. Soon, three familiar girls went up to said hi. As I was not close to them, so I was very quiet. Then our chairman, Siti, came and the six of us went to take bus and reached the Pasir Ris Park. Although I have been to many chalets before, this was the first time that I went here. So we walked a little bit distance before we reached the place. When we reached there, there were only 4 persons at the house and most of them I never talk to them before. So I only sat at one corner and stared, did not know how to react. As it was getting late, we wanted to start the barbeque but they forgot to buy the fire starter, so we had to wait for others to buy. Soon they got the fire starter; we started to barbeque but not me la. And then more and more people came and the place started to have noise. There were about 40++ people. There were many teachers, my classmates and other friends and the principal. People started to chat with their classmates, teachers and they were happily laughing. At the same time, they were taking food and eat. As my hands were not so agile, so I only ate some. I have not seen them for quite a long time since the secondary school and some of their faces like not changed so much. As I was not getting used to this kind of gathering, I did not know how to entertain or what. I felt like I was the only odd one that was in the chalet like a statue. I did chatted with some of my friends and teachers and knew that some of them are in army now, some are working, some are still studying and some are preparing to go for further studies. Some of my friends actually have their own already. I was so envious of them. For the teachers, since the close down of the Delta Sec School, teachers went separated. Some of them followed us to the Bukit Merah Sec School, others went to other schools to teach and some retired. Too bad, some of my classmates did not come and my two form teachers who took great care for me did not come. And we did not took any pictures. As I did not intend to stay over, so I left soon with my two malay classmates and said bye to them. |
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Still the same things I have done for the past few days…search for jobs online…sending out resumes to companies. On Monday, a company called me and asked me to go for an interview on Tuesday. The next day, I went for the interview at Sim Lim Square. When I reached there, the staff told me that the person was not in yet and asked me to wait. So I waited outside the shop for about 45 minutes and the staff showed me the way to the room. When I went into the boss’ room, he immediately called his secretary to ask me what I wanted. So I told her about the interview and you guessed that what she said. She told me that the company was not hiring anyone and asked me to leave. Again, my feeling was hurt and I felt like scolded the company that I wasted my time. Also, there would be always companies calling me whether I was finding jobs and I said yes. Then after I told them what the jobs I want, they would always tell me that they would call me back later. But there would always no reply from them. |
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OH MY GOD!!! When I can really find a job? Since the last failed attempt in the interview, I have been so depressed about it and was thinking of giving up of finding job. I hate people see me in a different view and despised me when they saw me in the interview. I know that I have difficulty in communicating with others and my right hand shakes often that others may think that I have no strength to carry things or do work. But I think that I can still do some simple work like typing or filing although I would be slower than others. Often, I see those handicapped people or those people who have disability people who work with their own hands to earn a living themselves. I really respect and admire them that they have such courage and determination to work with their own hands despite their unhealthy body and they need to tolerate other people’s view. I wish that I could have the courage like them to do the things that I wanted to do. Now I can finally understand what people say about this world – “CRUEL and UNFEELING”. Indeed, it is. I always thought that as long as I put in effort in doing something, there would be some rewards that I would get back. But now, I would change my opinion. In this world, appearance is more important than what others called “diploma” or “degree”. If I now have the money, I would surely go for surgery to make my speech more fluent and be a normal person. Thanks my friends, my parents and Jovin for encouraging me not to give up because of what others said and to move on and eventually there would be companies who would want to hire me. Although I think that this encouragement would not really help me greatly and I was still hurt in my heart and have been bothered by these matters. If not, I will surely give up on hopes. |
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Today is one of the busy and disappointing days to me. In the morning, I took my mother’s friend and her family to the OCBC bank to settle her school matters. While I entering the lift at our block, I received a call and told me to go down for interview. Then we went to the Techno Park because her daughter wanted to let the doctor check whether she is qualified to be a nurse. After finished check up, as they wanted to go Orchard and take the MRT, we took a bus and alighted near the Queensway shopping center. And from there, we walked for about 20 minutes to reach the MRT station and my shirt was nearly wet as it was too scorching. Then I quickly went back to home as later I need to go for an interview. I also found that I was beginning to fall sick as I was tired. In the afternoon, I went for interview that was also at the same place as last time I went. I was very tired by then and started coughing. After interview, I quickly went home to rest. But unfortunately, at around 8pm, I received a call that asked whether if I could start work tomorrow as store assistant. And so I agreed and the staff asked me to go down to sign the contract. So I was happy then and feeling that finally I found a job. And so I went to the company and the staff asked me to sign the contract. At this time, when I was signing the contract like normally, the staff immediately changed her expression and she went to her friend and whispered to her ears and at the same time, they kept looking at me. At that time, I sensed that they probably were talking about my medical condition and I guessed that this job was over again. Indeed, she got back to me again and said that the company would probably ask me to go work on Tuesday. Then she called me again, telling me that she has found enough people for the job. I was so hurt in that time although I knew it le. My confidence level dropped again and I blamed myself why I was born like that. When I told my mother about this, she said never mind and told me that in future, I can help her to look after children. What must this world be unfair??? Now I do not know how to stand up again to prepare for the future. |
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Yesterday, I received two calls from the companies but they were only just asking what job I want as usual and if there was any job, they would call me. Now I get used to it le because normally this kind of call, the person would never call back again. Also yesterday, my mother’s friend and her two children came to my house to stay. She came from Brunei to Singapore as her daughter wants to study nursing course. So they need to settle the school matters and all those staying problems. It has been long time I never seen them le since last time when we went back to Brunei about 4 years le. Her children have grown tall but there was hardly any change in her face. They will be staying at our house until Sunday and her daughter will stay until she finds a place to stay. Guess that my home will be a lot of messier than it is. HAHA!!! |
